Friday, August 15, 2008

Uncertainty

I'm a planner. If anyone knows me I like to know exactly where my life is heading, where I'll be, what I'll be doing, etc. But now...my life = uncertainty. I'm not a student and I'm not qutie a lawyer (and hopefully will be come November), I'm in the land of uncertainty. I don't have a job. Which is hard to admit to the blog world. But I don't. I'm looking. Everyday I send out more resumes. The problem is a lot of law firms won't hire until November when they know you are licensed. Boo. Where does that leave me, well continuing to send out resumes. Maybe someone will bite. I have good grades and a lot of experience and I know I will do a great job at a law firm one of these days, its just a matter of finding that job. I came back from Cancun knowing I didn't have anything to plan for. No school starting to buy new clothes and school supplies, no job to buy new suits and work supplies. But i'm managing. I had a few freak out moments this week, but Patrick assured me this is a normal feeling...one that a lot of people experience, but then why do I feel alone? Alas, I know the Lord has a plan for my life. I know he will lead me somewhere and I need to trust in that. But why is it so hard sometimes? In a way I wish I could snap my fingers and be there, sitting in my office, with the job I've always wanted. But I guess life doesn't really work like that. Until then, say a little prayer that God will open a window for me somewhere...

Much Love.

Yay: Hanging out with my sister!
Dang: blisters. boo.

2 comments:

Jen Lewis said...

I will very likely have a similar post sometime next week. I am still on my bar trip so I have yet to freak out, but I am right there with you! I will be praying for you as I pray for myself, haha!

Elaine said...

Praying for you friend! Everything will work out in the perfect way at the perfect time. I just know it.